Weigh in Wednesday

yesterday was Wednesday and i did step on the scale and take my measurements....No change. To be expected. I got to the gym thurs and friday last week and then took the weekend off....which turned into monday and tuesday off too :( I did go to the gym yesterday and did some lifting focusing on upper body and abs. Then I spend 35min on the eliptical. I think I may have pushed it a little too hard on the eliptical. I turned it up to lvl 4 and tried to keep it at like 4mph. I did ok till the end and suddenly the last 5 min or so my head started pounding and i got sick to my stomach. Was almost afraid to drive home honestly. I haven't felt quite right in the stomach since though the headache is mostly gone. I may go in tonight with Julie. I think for now i'm just gonna try and catch a nap though.

day 2

Just a quick post today. Hd yogurt for breakfast, tuna salad on wheat for lunch (with swiss) 3 slices of swiss for a snack and some chicken bake stuff at Holly's. I did pretty good up until the point that Holly made gingerbread cookies... OOO they were yummy, and i lack will power.

The girls had their yearly checkups today so I decided to go to the gym beforehand. Did some abs and legs as far as weight training and then got on the eliptical for 35 min. Did 1.8 miles I think it said. I was ok getting off the machine but by the time I got to the Dr.'s office I was having trouble with turning the steering wheel to park. By the time i got home could barely lift my left arm :( I took a muscle relaxer and a nap and that seemed to help. I am going to soak in the tub now and then an early bedtime i think.

day 1

Well my meeting with the trainer went ok today. Unfortunately I didn't get THAT much out of it. He worked out my chest and shoulders some. Definitely pushed me much further than i would have pushed myself. I hated him a little for that omg i was in so much pain. He says I naturally have very good form and he was very impressed. Also for some reason he REALLY likes my nose ring. I really only spent about half an hour working out with him though. The rest of the time he talked to me about the training program there.

He said he's willing to work with me twice a month for $70 a month (and he'd throw in some free sessions here and there) Then they'd plan out my workouts for 2 weeks at each meeting. I REALLY think it would be helpful for me. I talked to steve and he said when we get our tax return I could pay for a couple months upfront and we'd go from there. This is after the huge fit he threw the other night because I signed up without asking him. So...progress there. He said to me today that he would have preffered I waited till the next pay period, but he understands that I had talked them down alot and saved alot of money.

Anyways I went back tonight and spent 45 minutes on the eliptical. I tell you what i was ready to get off about 5 min into it, but i pushed myself. I did 2 miles. A really nice trainer came by and was talking to me a bit and helped me figure out my heart rate. He said I should get a monitor so I make sure I'm in the range for fat burning. He said my heartrate was a little high actually. I told him I know, but I'm SOOOO out of shape and if i went any slower on the eliptical the stupid thing would tell me to resume my workout LOL. Anyways he offered to help me out with a lower body workout next week so that's awesome. Hopefully we get all our documents for our tax return soon and hopefully we still get a good amount back this year.

I am going to attempt to drag my butt out of bed and go in tomorrow before the girls checkups at the drs. I am DEFINITELY not a morning person though so won't be easy. I think i'll try out some of the ab machines and probably hit the eliptical again. I just don't even know what i'm doing in there. I am thinking I want to try and str/cardio train like 3 days a week and then hit the yoga and/or water aerobics on off days. Atleast get in there 5 days a week. I know it's ambitious but I think I will do better if I go in more often... then it becomes part of my normal schedule instead of being something I can just blow off if i don't feel like it...

ETA: Forgot to say what I ate today. Didn't do so good. I had half a single serve bag of cheez-its for breakfast and a danactive. To be fair Tana ate my last yogurt. Lunch was a ham and swiss sandwich on whole wheat. 1 slice of honey ham and 4 slices of swiss +more mayo than i should have had. I had i think a total of 5 Fudge Stripe cookies. (Damn Steve for bringing them home) Dinner was BBQ Roast Beef and Mashed potatoes. I wanted to eat some spinach, but i'm not sure if what ihave is good anymore and i didn't feel like bending down to get it out of the produce drawer :S Oh and I had 2 glasses of coke. I am determined if I eat anymore tonight that it be a yogurt...NO COOKIES!!! ugh so hard. I think though once the kids are in bed I'm going to have a nice soak in the tub and go to bed myself. I am exhausted.

Steve won't let me get a lock right now so i have to leave my purse and all my belongings in the car and lock them up and then slip my keys in the diaper bag when I leave Kit at the daycare. Anyways I can't wait till i have a lock so i can enjoy the whirlpool there!!!

New Beginnings

So I did end up joining LA Fitness. I can't afford one of their trainers but I have a complimentary session with one tomorrow. Hopefully I can get enough of a pointing in the right direction from him to do it on my own for a bit. The trainer is willing to work with me like once or twice a month for less than normal but Steve is refusing to pay for even that. So...I am going to try and get a picture with weight and measurements on here once a week. I'll get a picture tomorrow. But here's the starting stats


Weight: 238
Bust: 53"
Waist: 43"
Hips: 51"

Gym Visit

Well I went to visit a gym around her today. They have this women's weight loss program that would be absolutely perfect for me. It's very structured and supportive.....and expensive. Just for me there is a $250 enrollement fee and its $55 every two weeks. Add the kids to the plan and its another $50 enrollement and $20/two weeks PER kid. I would sorta HAVE to add Kit to the plan as otherwise it is $7 per visit for the daycare and I would LIKE to add Tana to the plan as they have kid's programs I think she'd REALLY benefit from.

So I made an appt to visit another gym tomorrow. I only know of 2 other gyms in the area and 1 for sure doesn't have daycare. So we'll see how that goes

Oh and today I was stil 238lbs and they did a body comp....51.7% fat :( thats just gross

I'm back....

...and fatter than ever

238 lbs at the drs today and my BP was 118/98 . I'm scared

The past couple months have been bad. The combination of meds I was on threw me into a deep depression. I pretty much wanted to kill myself every day. I stopped walking, I stopped cooking. I am ashamed to admit how much McDonalds we ate.

So anyways today was a wakeup call. I talked to hubby and I made an appt to go check out a local gym. They have a program specifically for women that includes daycare, nutrition support, emotional support, a weightloss coach and special women only classes. I would also have access to the rest of the gym and the pool area that includes a sauna and a whirlpool which would be good for my "fibromyalgia" (and taking the weight off probably wouldn't hurt either)
I think this would be a good fit so hopefully we can afford it.

I am afraid if I keep going at the rate I am, I won't see 35. I need to be here for my girls and set a healthy example for them.