Better

well, i skipped the straterra last night and I didn't feel anywhere near as bad today. still had some dizzy spells but i was functional atleast. ate horribly today but did get out for about 20 mins for a walk. probably would have walked further but Tana was whining about the heat and the sun and her sweating. then she decided to hide behind a tree from me and that was the end of the walk. was going to try and get some time in on the wii fit tonight but am getting tired so maybe just skip that.

I'm so dizzy, my head is spinning

so I haven't felt much like posting lately. Hasn't been anything to post. The dizzy spells have been really bad. I try to get out for a walk each day, but i never manage to get far, and some days i just can't get out at all. At first i took the spells to mean eat something and i did feel better when i ate, but i discovered it's just the action of chewing making me feel better so i'm chewing gum instead. I'm sure i've put those 3 lbs back on but i don't have the heart to weigh myself. I'm waiting to get a call from a specialist that the paperwork is done and set an appt. They think it's something with my inner ear.

Just took

the baby in the stroller and went for a 30 min walk. Feel like I walked about 5lbs off. Not going to go weigh myself though. I took my phone and had some lady gaga playing to try and keep my pace up. It's 3pm so far i had a little cereal for breakfast and some pretzels for a snack. got up around 9am today... too early if you ask me. Not really feeling like eating anything atm. kinda dizzy, just want to take a nap really. i hate getting adjusted to meds.

Down 3 lbs

without trying...granted at this weight 3 lbs isn't much, but i'll take it.

Medication

So i've been put on low doses of Abilify and strattera. Abilify tends to have a weight gain effect, strattera tends to make people lose their appetite. i don't know whether to even continue trying to lose weight or not. I haven't weighed myself in awhile. I've been really sick lately. Apparently i have an inner ear problem thats been causing dizziness and a chest wall inflammation. I honestly thought i was dying for awhile. Thought my heart was giving up. Maybe that is a clear sign that i need to lose weight but it's SOOo hard. I think i have a food addiction...specifiically sweets. Steve keeps bringing ice cream in the house and expecting me to not eat it. I'm so weak when it comes to ice cream. Every time i go to the store its a struggle not to get soda and candybars. I just don't know if it is worth it to lose weight but make myself miserable. And with the meds, they could help, but the could seriously hinder me as well. Words of advice?

McDonalds is trying to help

Yeah was a bad girl and went there for dinner. Really haven't been feeling well lately and had a migraine most of today. Anyways got a grilled chicken sandwich and a large fry....only they forgot to give me my large fry even though they didn't forget to charge me for it. I chalked it up as a sign and didn't even call to complain. Other than that i had some tuna for lunch and a banana for breakfast. Water to drink all day. Tried to take a walk during a break in the storms but it started pouring about halfway through our first lap. It actually felt pretty good. If i hadn't had Kit in the stroller i might have just stuck it out and walked the three.

Ow

So yeah haven't blogged lately. Been having alot of pain issues. My muscles...specifically the ones in my neck and upper back...have been just locking up for no reason. For about 2 weeks I could barely move. It is getting better now, but why is it so hard to get going again? Of course the first thing I reach for when hurting is freaking junk food...comfort foods. And i didn't feel much like cooking so had a lot of fast food.
So doing some better now. Been eating mainly chicken pot pie the last 2 days. I made a big pot the other day so been eating leftovers. Haven't been exercising any to speak of. Have been doing alot of cleaning trying to get the house back in order. Of course when i can't do anything everyone else decides they can just leave dishes and trash wherever. I am so mad i just did 6 loads of Tana's laundry and i look in her room and it's all over the floor!!!